September 2010
5 posts
jealousy is the cousin of greed.
I need to be really motivated in order to lose weight like I want to before the end of October. I need to eat healthy, and actually work for it. I need more motivation than I have because right now I just feel like so bad about myself. I hate how I look. I’m jealous of those other girls. I want to be pretty like them too. I just don’t know anymore.
Life is conflicted sometimes.
I haven’t blogged in a while, so I’m gonna mush everything into this post. Life was going great until my one friend told me he liked me and I thought I liked him too, but it turns out I don’t. I ended things with him and now he hates me with a burning passion. Whatever we were, we only were for a few days. At first I felt horrible, it was like a hard slap on the face. Then I...
“I will never let you fall. I’ll stand up with you forever. I’ll be...”
July 2010
1 post
summer
I absolutely love summer and its finally going good. I have a few goals I want to accomplish this summer.
meet cute guys when i go to Stone Harbor
get super tan!
read a few books
take really cool pictures
lose a little weight
I feel like I can accomplish all of these and I’m really excited to go to the beach! I feel like life is going really well right now and I’m not going to do...
June 2010
2 posts
life.
Honestly, life sucks. I feel myself falling into a depression that I don’t wanna be in. Its summer and I’m dealing with so many issues. I may sound conceited, but this is just a vent. I have a few guys liking me and I don’t like any of them back. At least I think I don’t, and I don’t know how to continue being friends with them without hurting them or leading them on....
best friends for never.
It was real great having you as a best friend. It was awesome and I miss it so much. But now, its over. I knew it was, but now it’s actually hitting me. And I’m alone. I guess I was never good enough for you. I mean really, I was the only person you treated like that. And now there’s nothing. There has to be something wrong with me. I don’t fit in with anyone in this world....
May 2010
10 posts
nothing is forever, forever is a lie. all we have...
Hey there. I’m finally happy. I’m over you. I don’t need you. Of course, for now I’ll get jealous of other girls, but I know I’ll be okay. I’m ready to talk to other people. Phew. I have great friends and made new ones today. Life is good. And summer is coming. I am so happy. School can die for now. I really don’t have much to say. Kay I’m done. Bye...
everything i do reminds me of you.
I absolutely hate how much I like you. It like kills me. I hate feeling like this. I would think I should be over you by now. Guess not. I don’t even know what to write because I just can’t take it. Bleh. The song I’m listening to is like perfectly describing my mood.
“Please come and rescue me tonight. I just wish that I could disappear. Someone take me far away from...
i'm losing hope and fading dreams.
I am just so done. With everything. I’m in such a horrible mood. You are the most confusing guy I have ever fucking met. I admitted last night to someone how much I still care about you and how much I know I don’t have a chance. Being in this position really sucks and I wish you knew how I felt. Like I really wish you knew. I think by the end of this week I am going to send you the...
cause ever since you left, there's been an open...
Hey there. I am exhausted. I had to wake up at 7:30 this morning for a field hockey tournament. I played on two different teams and ended up playing 9 games. It was so tiring, especially because it was like 80 degrees out on the turf. To make it even better, me and the girl who played on two different teams sometimes had back to back games without breaks. We once had a back to back to back game....
there’s something missing in her smile.
I’ve been in the most confusing mood all day. Last night, I came to the understanding that I miss you a lot more than I realized. And it really hurts. I don’t know if you miss me or not, but I kinda hope you do. Its killing me. I really don’t know why either and people most likely wont even begin to try to understand. I think I need you. You made me so happy and being with you...
happiness is the soundtrack of my life.
Today was definitely a good day. Being with Stef during testing was hilarious. I couldn’t stop laughing. I have to say I probably laugh more with her than anyone else. The rest of my day wasn’t bad either so I’m in a pretty good mood.
Okay so I have a goal. I need to lose weight by summer. My plan is too eat a lot less and start running more. I think I’m also going to do...
when you watch the sunset, think of me.
Today was a good day. I had a very lazy morning, went to the mall, and to a soccer game. All in all not bad. One of the better parts of my weekend. I realized that, although I do enjoy being by myself, I do get very lonely. When I’m by myself I have all the time in the world to let my mind wander. It always seems to travel to places that shouldn’t ever be accessible. I think of my life, every...
live. life. quotes.
As this title suggests, I live my life by quotes. I personally think they are amazing and so true. So as I’m eating my Life cereal (that’s kind of ironic), I’ll write some of my favorite quotes ever. Well you can see one that I live by in my little info box to the right. Anyway, here are the rest.
“Don’t be afraid of death, be afraid of an unlived life. You...
just keep moving on. there's no perfect endings.
I was thinking about it, and it seems like right now I should start blogging. I need to have a way where i can get my feelings out. Over the past few days I have had a lot of mixed emotions. From feelings extremely upset Thursday to feeling ecstatic all of Friday, its been pretty crazy.
I think I’m gonna stay single for a while. I need a breather, you know? Summer’s coming up anyway...
March 2010
1 post
“dont be afraid of death, be afraid of an unlived life.
you dont have to live...”